Tuesday, June 29, 2010

The Darkness


Ever since the day
I came in to
This world of darkness
I've been trying to find
The reason why
My faith departed?
Life is like an empty street
I'm the only one
Who is walking
When it seems
Every thing is so fine
Felt like
I was left alone to die
And every time i cry
It's so hard to see the truth
I dont know why

I'm fighting
Since the day I've been born
Don't know why
I'm left alone?
When the time moves on
I'll walk along
The road to the night
Where i belong....

Saturday, June 26, 2010

The Wish......


I expect
The unexpected...
I respect the
Absurd...
I believe
In uncertainty..
I trust in
A lie.....
I see
The darkness....
And I hear the
Silence......
I taste
The bitterness....
And I suffer
The tenderness....
I read
My own mind....
And I greet
My own self....
I cheat
My own fate
And I wish if
I wasn't born.....

I prefer
Black over white....
And I don't
Know about grey....
I choose..
If there’s nothing to lose.....
I cry...
When I’m surrounded.....
I smile
When I’m alone.....
I lie
When I’m questioned...
Past
Is my future......
The present
Is unknown......
Your smile
Is my retribution......
Your pain
Is my gain.....
It’s a shame
That I’m still standing......
My soul is
Yours to claim.......

I’ll bow
To my avenger.....
I’ll howl
To my savior....
I’ll crawl
Out from heaven.....
I’ll be
Who I am....
I’ll lose
My self....
On the verge
Of redemption.....
I’ll embrace
The guilt.....
And I’ll enjoy
The free fall.....
I’ll refuse
To recall.....
I’ll trade
My freedom....
For a few
Words of wisdom.....
Not to meet
My fate.....
Just to avoid
The gates.....

Friday, June 25, 2010

The Motive


I know man....
I know how much
You hate him
He is your foe...
Ain't he....
But that’s your
Own problem......
Just get over it.......
That’s all I can say
That’s what every one
Will say....
It’s the 21st century
You can't challenge
Him to a bout...
Just forget it...
There’s nothing
Else you can do
And trust me...
If you kill him....
It’s called MURDER...
Not REVENGE.....
And when that happens..
The society
Will kill you BACK....
A senseless suit
Will claim your head....
Blood for blood
An eye for an eye
Simple as that
And it is called
JUSTICE...
Not VENGEANCE
Isn’t it amazing.....
So my advice.....
Shut the f*** up....
And get over it....
Or be smart
And run him over...
It’s called an ACCIDENT......

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Head Strong........




Head Strong

Walking with arrogance
So long...
For being nice & innocence
Get along...
Or just be left alone
Is it wrong...
Hell no i feel damn strong

Walking tall......
It feel so different
I want it all....
Don't know what is sufficient
Say good bye....
To rainy days...
The sun is out....
In the end.....

Get it on...
I ain't gonna back away
Hay whats up..
Its only goanna be this way
Say good bye...
To the lonely nights...
It is time...
For the shining lights...

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Intoxicated


Been sitting here
All day long....
Trying to figure out
What went wrong.....
I'm trying my best
To be strong.....
I need to be
Where i belong....

I'm lost in a dream...
That keeps me awake..
Cant find what is real
Coz it feeds my needs..
Don't know what to believe...
Am i deceived...
I just cant figure out...
some one help me please......

I'v been here
For some time now..
Still got no clue..
Head spins around..
I'm trying my best
To be alert...
Just want out..
Not to be hurt...

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Exit Strategy......


There’s pain
In my brain
I’m just looking
For some space...
Just wana
Walk away
Form this place
Called disgrace....

There’s pain
In my veins
And it’s driving me
Insane....
It’s not that I’m
Giving in
I’m just losing
My game.....

There’s pain
Not again....
I’m all alone
Derailed
Just the same old
Embrace…
Of the lifeless
Temptation...

There's pain
But no shame...
Coz I know what
I need...
There’s only
One fracture...
I just don’t' know
What I want......

There's pain
Simple as that...
No matter what
You said...
Or what ever
You did.....
Nothing can help
It’s yours....

There's pain
On this lane
Called life, Yes
It’s the same one....
There’s no
Easy way out
To escape.....

There’s only one
Way out..
Yes that’s right
The one you
Came from
At the start....
It’s the one.....

Not the HOW
WHAT or WHERE...
It’s the WHY...
You should care
And if u dare
You’ll find
It THERE.........

WHY do we come
And why do
We stay
WHY it is
So Damn hard
just to
Break AWAY.....

HOW?
It's the question
WHAT
Is the answer....
WHY
Is the explenation
So why ME......

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Nomenclature


When I say no
To a fight.....
You call me a coward.....
When I say no
To colour...
You call me a traitor.....
When I say no
To religion
You call me a sinner.....
When I say no
To my self....
You call me insane.....

When I say no
To class....
You call me a rebel....
When I say no
To temptations.....
You call me a loser.....
When I say no
To fame....
You call me a retard...
When I say no
To you....
You call me a bastard....

When I say no
To power..
You call me insecure....
When I say no
To injustice.....
You call me reckless.....
When I say no
To a trend...
You call me absurd....
When I say no
To perception...
You call me unfair....

Thursday, June 17, 2010

An Echo from Château d'If


Pressure and time
Are partners in crime......
In shattering hopes
And breaking dreams....
They can knock you down
From your personal
Heaven of comfort
Back on the earth.....
They can force you
To wake up....
And face each day.....
Embrace the reality......
And taste the bitterness
Of truth.....
The sweetness of a lie...
Feel the harshness of
Mortals.....
And the tender side
In a demon...
Feel the sadness of life....
And the joy of death....
The darkness in light...

They will make you
Kneel before the coldness
Of love.....
And witness the beauty
In hate.....
You will no more
Understand the
Difference between
A mosquito
And a butterfly....
Or a swan and a crow.....
I mean who cares....
You won't feel a thing.....
Say good bye to tears.....
And no more nightmares.....
You'll enjoy night time
More than ever...
Its intolerable calmness....
And deadly silence
Will be your lullaby......
Pressure and time..
Yes that’s all it takes
Slowly but steadily
They will take you ON.....

Along with time....
You will learn how to
Replace you cries
With smiles
And to cover your lies
With confidence....
Invent the logic
Called coincidence....
You will learn that the
Best place to hide
Is right in front of the eyes.....
Slowly but surely...
You’ll understand the
Importance of denial....
The beauty of the word
NO....
You’ll learn to trust
Your hands
Than your brain....
Pressure and time..
Yes that’s all it takes
Slowly but steadily
They will take you HOME….......

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

The Difference..........


When you’re at war
You are a HERO….
In life
You’re a SINNER…..
As for the law
You are a CRIMINNAL…..
In reality
You’re just some MAN...

When you’re at war
You call them FOES....
In life
It’s a lonely SOUL...
As for the law
Just another VICTIM...
In reality
It’s a HUMAN being....

When you’re at war
You don't KNOW them.....
In life
You don't really CARE....
As for the law
You just need a MOTIVE....
In reality
It’s the CONSCIENCE...

When you’re at war
You get the MEDALS....
In life
You’re condemned to HELL….
As for the law
You might loose your OWN....
In reality
Nothing matters at all…..

The Eccentric Definition


Change
That’s the only thing
That does not change......
Uncertainty
It’s the only certain thing....
Hate
It’s not just a one way street
It works both ways
Just like love....
Greed
It’s the root of all evil
Trust me it has no end......
Retreat
Every time you feel the anger....
Coz it’s not the start but the end
That matters...
Devotion
Is not strangling your emotions
It’s the art of making them obey.....
And words
They are so empty but sharp
It’s impossible to redeem......
So treat
Each day with proper respect
Try not to look through those
Green shades......
The answer
Is always of less importance
It’s the question that matters
The most....

Monday, June 7, 2010

The Optimistic Conservative


I’ve been looking
At the dawning sun
Wishing for a start
A new beginning
The perfect day
All over again
And I’ll be doing the same
For many years to come
Hopefully....

I’ve been singing
In the pouring rain
Wishing it would
Wash away
All the stains
Caused by sadness
I know its madness...
But I’ll be doing the same
For many years to come
Hopefully....

I’ve been dreaming
Every night n day
For some one
To show me the way...
From this darkness
In to the light....
And I’ll be doing the same
For many years to come
Hopefully..

I’ve been staring
At my windowpane
Trying to find
At least one idle ray
Of light to save my day...
To break away....
And I’ll be doing the same
For many years to come
Hopefully....

Sunday, June 6, 2010

The Neanderthal Code


Dear friend…
I’m not trying
To prove any point
Just need to
Clear out this joint
Me and you
We r both insane....
Trying to be smart..
But u know how lame..
We are.....
For a start
It’s no shame....
To get high...
And to touch the sky...
Leave all the lies
Down low....
Let’s fly high
Above all the problems....
So called Rational
Let’s embrace it
The ugly truth...
Sure looks pretty
When looking through
The naked eyes...
With out the shades
Of perception....
So called cultural bullshit
And the values of
Homo sapien sapiens......

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Whoz the BOSS?


Can u measure time...
No I guess not....
But perhaps u can get an idea....
By the amount of wrinkles
Appearing on ur face....
Amount of brain cells
Lost each day....
Kind of extreme I guess...
Lets start over..
The amount of spider webs appearing
Only if ur a bit lazy...
N the thickness of dust
Concentrated out side the window....
Change in the color
Of your walls.....
Amount of mushrooms flushing
On a fallen tree....
All these small things
Hints of time...
Will give u only one answer...
Time is not the thing
That is passing.....
Time is still...
Instead
It is us……
We are just visitors.....
Trespassing through
This thing called life....
Strange isn’t it.....
Yes I know...
It hurts...to see it this way...
But the truth always does...
Isn’t it.......

Let Go....


Some times...
world changes - in a blink of an eye..
No pause no rewind - how hard u try....
Should we fall down - roll over and die..
Or just look at the world - right in the eye..

And say......
I'm on quick sand..
I'm over my head...
The Harder i fight...
The Deeper i Sink...
Its hard to breath now..
Just wana let go...
I'm falling apart..
Just can't carry the load....
Just let me go....

Some people might try - some others may cry
But nothing matters when you arr - on the front line..
This life is unfair - no body will care...
So just let it go - And leave it there...

Bad...


I am just me...
Rude as you see...
Bad as can be...
Just free....
Yep its for real..
Comes with the deal..
Its so hard...
Not to be...
Me...

Haunted


The night keeps me awake..
No dreams on the way..
Loneliness starts to rule....
Whispers in the dark..
Tares me apart...
It haunts in my head...
Tears breaks away..
Heart, it's not there..
I'm the only one to blame..
Coldness in my veins...
Seeps through my brain...
Thoughts drain away...

Chit - Chat


I write u a letter...
U send back 2 LETTERS..
When i take a while..
U send back a SMILE...
Starts with a HI..
Sometimes no good BYE..
I keep on wondering..
Thinking just WHY...
Can it be REAL..
In this world of DREAMS..
No-mater how its ENDS
We'll still be FRIENDS..

Mother


Listen everyday...
What the world has to say....
Isn't it amazing...
When she speaks...
Through the dew drops...
And smiles with the sunlight...
so bright i see...
Brings us delight....
With every sight...
Mother I'm glad just to be...
Give me the rainbow...
The colours so bright...
Coz not everyone can see
Your northern lights...
She crys like the rain...
Weeps like the ocean...
Sleep in the dark nights...
In the blue veil of sky...
Starry heavens may just smile and say..
Ah she is the princess of milky way...

Hope


There goes another one down
Just give it up come lets run
I'm trying to figure out
But the time is running out
I don't know what to look for
But i know it is around
Just tel me what to see....
I'll keep my eyes clean....
I'll try my best to feel it with in....

There is something more to life than this
But no body has a clue what it is
Just tell me something more...
Anything that i should know...
Coz its obvious
That there should be something more than this
There should be something more to life

Pressed against a glass i see
See it all but just cant feel
I'm trying to reach out
But myself drags me down
I'm listening but no sound
But i know it is around
Just tel me whats the way....
I'll keep my self awake....
I'll try my best to feel it here......

Sleepyhead....:)


Its 3 'o' clock in the morning
And Freddy sings Hammer to fall
I'm lost in a Ga Ga land
Where Beethoven plays rock n roll
Sudden shocks - With frequent stops
Along my way to see - the Wizard of OZ...
I'm still here toss n turning...
My phone keep on singing the tone...
What the hell its Tinkerbell...
She keeps on playing with my hair
I badly needs an overdraft
Will Goblins allow my share...
Only gold no time they told
I'm not dumb i know whats rare...
Revisions & provisions..
All gone wrong inside my head..
Overheads & payables...
Are floating above my bed...
Suddenly it's all gone...
I see my self at the edge...
But I'm not dead....
What just happened...
Damn...It's 6 'o' clock...
Some one please hit me in the head....

White Flag


Go on kill me once and 4 all..
Just don't tare apart my soul..
You can take what ever u want...
But the spirit in me won't let go...
Trust me i won't fight any more...
Please just let me fall...

Trust was the air that i breath...
I can't stand coz now its breached...
Don't wana see what lies beneath...
Just can't prtend i was deceived...
I dont wanna hold any more...
I surrender heres my sward....

True Lies.....


My dear friend....
Its not easy to pretend..
Its the greatest pain..
Not being u..
So why bother about others
The so called society
And its actors and directors....
Dictators & Spectators...
They are waiting for u to fall
And laugh until u plea...
Why talk about morals..
While posing in fashion..
Why bother about love..
And hide ur passion..
To look in to a mirror
Its easy...
But to be like one...
Its hard....
Be a rock against water...
And a bamboo in the wind..
The longer u grow...
The lower u go....
Higher u reach...
More humble u be....
Float free...
Like a bumble bee....
Sing all the time...
But sting if u have to....
Always smile and be nice...
But feel free to realize...
The true lies....

Find Me Guilty...


Yes it is me
The real thing...
Am i guilty for being free....
So go ahead n laugh...
As long as u like...
I won't mind at all...
Coz i know ur afraid..
And u really wana cry...
So i pity u..
Plz dnt ask me why...
Look in to ur shallow heart..
U'll find the answer..
With ur fears...
And ur tears...

Never say Die.....


Some times i feel
That i still can fly
Even though I'm
Not strong enough to try
I might fail
But i won't cry
Cause i believe in life

Some times when
I dream at night
I still believe
That i can fight
I might loose
But i won't hide
Cause i believe in life

They might say
That I'm a dreamer
Some might say
That I'm a damn looser
I won't care
Cause I'm a believer
Cause I'm still alive

Time After Time


I'm just wandering
Between my brain n my heart...
Don't know where to start..
Its taring me apart...
Yeah.....Every Day....
I'm just switching
Between my needs n wants
Only to see how it goes...
Round n round it floats.
Just the same....old way...
Tell me something
Do i look OK to you...
Its crazy but its true..
Can u help me find a clue...
To keep me awake...and away..

Alone in the Dark


I'm stuck
In the middle of a dream...
Did u hear me scream...
Like a little child
Afraid of the dark....
Still here...
Wondering about..
Things went off last night...
They still haunts
Deep in my mind....
Just wanna rewind
Take snap-shot of my mind
Frame & keep it all behind
Just to remind...

No Peeking....


Its sweet its sour...
Its amazingly painful...
Its truly deceiving...
But feels never better
After every fight.....
Stars do shine...
Every dark night.....
Cold summers...
And warm winters...
No its not to be predicted..
Not to be foreseen...
Beyond our sight...
Am i right.....
Its the journey called life...

The Bug


Tell me something
I don't know
Give me one thing
I want more
Do you really know me
At all....
Tell me baby..
I just need to know....
I need u...i love u...
What do i do without u....
I feel u...i believe u...
Just wanna be with u....
But something keeps on
Bothering me...
Everyday it breaks
A piece of me....
Just don't know
Where to start...
Something wrong
With my heart...
Everyday that passes by...
Keeps on hurting i wonder why...
It just breaks me apart...

Backtracking


Walking back wards
From where i started....
Beating clock work
By rewinding forward....
Heart beats with pain
Of being departed...
Feel like lost...
Am i retarded...

Show me something
Thats goes along...
Show me why...
I should be alone...
Tell me what
Is going on.....
I ain't blind....
I'm trying my heart out...
Just to beat his pain...
Within...my heart....

Been with the fireworks...
Day after day...
Nothing clicks
No matter what u say...
Heart sings with rain..
Clouds gather with pain
I'm loosing my mind
And I'll say..........

Tears from Heaven


Clouds above...
Hides the light...
Dark skys....
And long sighs...
Shes about to cry...
No one knows why..
Is she afraid of the
Mighty Thor....
And the thunder of his roar...
Does she feel sorry for
Her children....
Playing Under the skyline....
Comes from her bloodline...

The Long Good Bye


How hard it is to loose a friend
Even worse just to pretend
That i don't care at all
How hard it is to feel guilty
When ur falling 4 some one so deeply
Its breaking my heart apart
How hard is it to be a man
To turn your face just on command
What is it worth to be
So tell me my friend
Have u ever felt the same...
Have u ever felt like ur feelings
Draining away....
AWAY.......

déjà vu...


Tell me how to define...
A friend...
Show me how to refine..
In the end...
Is it just u & me
And me & u....
Is it some thing
More than the truth...
Is this just a déjà vu...
Or just another clue...
I'm waiting for a sign
With an open mind..
I'm looking just to rewind
To find whats left behind...
Again.....

Bread & Salt


I admire you.
You have a nice open heart.
You make me thoughtful.
You should be u.
Someday I will meet u hopefully.
You + me = friends i guess.
If I saw you now I'd say HI but u wont recognize me...:)
I want to know you inside out.
I would build a bridge just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be "life is wonderful"-Jason Marz.
We could be friends under the stars.(or eat bread n salt like Arabs)

Bull-worth


How can it be...
Is it possible ?
To sell your life..
Inexchange a for a dime...
Is it a crime...
To trade what u beieve...
To shade what u see..
And to give up a dream...
Can money buy u fame?
Yes of course....
It will also give u shame...
Free of charge...
Can money...
Cheat the fate...
Can money
Buy u a life.....
The answer is way too
Complicated...
Can money
buy u hapiness...
Can it give you the light...
Answer is no....
But then what about life...
Money can buy u a life without happiness...
Or is it worth to be happy without a life...
Whats it worth....?

Confession


Does it bother you...
How i live my life...
How i treat my self..
Its mine...
Its mine to hold..
To tare n fold...
Shape n throw away...
If i want to...
Its mine to give up...
And mine to hate....
It belong to me....
Myself and i....
So please feel free....
The choice is yours...
Yours alone...

Never Again....


I dont wana be the best
Don't wana beat the rest
Don't want the darkness
But i won't....
Fight for the light
Call me a coward...
Call me a fool...
Hate me as long as u feel
What i see is real...
Hit me as hard as u can
Try me....
But i want plea..
Throw me from a window
In to the wild...
Toss me in the air...
In to the crowd..
But why...
Wast your precious time
on some one like me...
All u got to say..
Is please....
I will just fade away..
Liek a dew drop in a desetrt...
Like a tear drop in your eyes..
From your perfect little
world of lies...
Never to return...
AGAIN.....

Random


Dreams....
Nightmares...
Love n hate...
Life goes on....
Like i'm always late...
Its bitter
Its sweet...
Empty n full
Looks do differ
But ends the same way....

No More


My head spinns around
Trust me i'm listning...
But i hear no sound......
My mind is weak...
Restless but sweet....
Still has the will
To show me whats real...
Career goals
So many roles....
Big deals.....
And more....
I dont wana be a hot shot...
A suit without a heart...
A brain with out a mind..
A man but not human...
I dont want this....
Just wana break free...
Wana see the light in me...
Brighter than the sun...
Wiser than the world...
Tell me what u feel...
Is it worth not to be...
ME....N Free....

Out of Order


Dreams
They come everyday....
Hopes
Come along the way....
Time
It just floats away...
In the end
Its just another day....
Every moning
It starts again...
It goes like
Tick tick tick
Tick tick tick
People come people go....
Memories do stay....
Some fades away...
Some leave scars
That never goes away...
Some keep haunting
Until the end...

Expendable...?


Just another day....
Sun is up i'm away....
Running with no reason
Going with the season....
Dont know what i do...
Dont know what to choose...
Its so complicated....
I'm starting to loose.....
The clarity...
My sanity...
Am i stuck here
For the eternity....
I'm all alone
No one walks along..
No friends but trends
Is it all the same
In the end....

Awakening....


I'm missing my heart...
Life is breaking apart..
Thought i was whole..
Life was just another game...
But now its all gone
I can't stand the pain...
Thought i was someone
Else....
Thought it would be
The same....
While i was busy
Making plans...
The world was changing
At a glance...
Now i'm here alone...
Trying find my feet...
Trapped in a grave yard...
Full of unborn memories...
Hidden in the
Corners of my mind...
Stuck in the middle
With and empty heart
Broken dreams and frozen tears....
Lost in the middle of
No where.....
With no directions to
Lead..........

FB: The cover Up.....

Ur the pretties thing i've ever seen...
Ur so sweet so cute and i'm so happy i met u....
I'm so glad that u let me in....
Thank u Dear...
Ur like a sister to me......
Be my friend...
I will be ur best friend......
We will be friendz 4ever....
Friendship is so pure...
Ur so nice....so talented.....
OMG....thats great.....
Just great...Simply Awesome....
I like that too....
We are so similar.....
WOW u make me smile....
U look lovely in that pic....
Gorgeous...so beautiful....
U'v got angle eyes....
I can't help my self....
I just wonder....?

Shameful Fame

I wana hide
From ur eyes...
Your lies...
From ur crys.....
Wana fall asleep
With no dreamz....
On my mind...
Wana blow away
All the promises
I'v made...
Don't wana remember
Any dues i'v paid...
Just wana scream away
My pain....
Dont wana see ur face
Again...
Never AGAIN.....

Mission Impossible

I'm looking every where...
For the perfect alibi...
Through the clouds...
Shouting out loud...
just to satisfy my mind..
To answer the queries
About my sneezing heart....
Which has crash landed..
In to an alien planet
Called doubt...

Hear I Am.......

when ur down...
when ur not sure
what this life is all about
when ur feeling like
its not just right...
when the whole world attacks u
when everyone is against u
when everything falls out of line
when all the dreamz just drags u down
just look up n say....
Here i am....

Hard RESET

A new start - a new life
New faces - strange places
A blank mind - no rewind
A free fall - no recall
No past - no lookin back
Go fast - thers only one track

All i want is
A HARD RESET
To forget all
With no regrets
Just feel the rush
Don't be afraid
All u need is
Just one wish......

There's happiness - thers pain
There's nothing else - we can gain
Trapped inside - our tiny veins
We'v got the power - just look again
No one can - stop the rain
Just be a cloud - and fly away....

Guess What?

its hot n its cold
smtyms hard to hold
not like what its told
dnt know wht its called....

its young n its old
differs from its mould
its worth more than gold
flows as it unfolds.....

its ture n its false
crys while it glows
smiles while its sore
dnt knw whts it for.....

2010

Its just another number
A little closer to the end
Comes after December
Can u break the trend
I dnt wana remember
No rejoice or revenge
Will u be my November
Is that a "yes" my friend......

“how” is the question and “what” is the answer......

Every man on earth has his share of fear & tear along with an occasional moment of joy. One might say that life is all about those moments of happiness rather than the life time of pain. But I say different. Pain & sorrow along with the fear tells us something important. That is we should find an answer to this life. Coz if not we'll suffer more and more. Each & everyday that passes by brings loads & loads of pain. Actually what most of us do is that we live with the hope that some day it will all end and happiness will find us. But as far as I know that day will never come. And nothing will change if we don't change the system.
Actually “how” is the question and “what” is the answer. Confusing isn’t it. To find the answer to how we are going to change should begin with understanding what this life is. What exactly is this life? Why are we born? What is our purpose of living? One might say forget it n enjoy life. One might say it’s an open ended question. One might say it’s an exam that we have to learn while facing it. But all these answers have one thing in common. That is no one is certain about the meaning of life. To be honest I had no clue what so ever about life for the past 20 years. Strange isn’t it. It gives me a shiver coz now I know that I’ve been passing time for the last 20 years, idling like a buffoon without a purpose.
But no one can change the past. So what we should do is to go ahead n change the future. But then again HOW?

Until

we meet-we speak
we cheat-we lie
we dream-we scream
we kneel-we cry
we breath-we sleep
we weep-but why
its cheap-i knw
but its worth-to try......

Bitter Sweet

Its a game with no rules
Crossword with no clues
A candle with no light
A painful delight..
Its a flower with no scent
A tunnel with no end
Don't fall for the trend
Trust me its no friend......

You are pressed against a glass
You can see but won't feel
some times it feels like
A wound that won't heal
It looks just like snow
But its hot in its core
Yes we always want more
But theres no where to go......

Look in the Mirror

One of the core teachings of Lord Buddha was to give up the feeling of ownership/ego/belongingness. E.g: This is mine...this belongs to me...no one else should have it...this is ours..This is only for the betterment of ourselves....But is it the case in SL. we call our selves pure Buddhists. According to us this is the land of the Dhamma. Yet we r so worried about our things...this is our country. Our Motherland. not anybody else’s. This is our Buddhist culture...the sad thing is that we r killing in the name of Lord Buddha....so sad...HP ppl in SL wd understand this soon....we r no Buddhists...we r just racists barbarians...u may not agree..But some day u will..We call this is the most precious country of all. But why…coz we were born here. Then what are we…Just another set of animals with poor attitudes. A mad bunch of hypocrites. U might call me a traitor. But its just a fragment of your imagination. The only truth is this world is full of individuals and their needs. The word society, Country, community r just excuses that we use to full fill our endless needs.

Silent Scream

In the search of immortality
Cheating our destiny
In the dawn of insanity
Breaching our fantacy
I ask from u all
When will be tha fall
Will you recall
How many heads rolled....
Over one question
Over one love...
Who is god and who is man
The god that lives above
The dog that lives in us...
The sermans of heart
Preachings of love
Teachings of goodness
Examples of divinity
Different in sound
Meanigs are the same
Why cant we look for once
Without the glasses
With out our perception
Without the ignorance
Just reset you brain
Be a nutral
Just for this once
For the sake of your own...

Living

You might be cold
But inside my heart is just turning on
Warm feelings starts to flow
With old memories begin to glow.....

No... i'm not that old u know
You always tell me com'on
Come n play along.....
The world might find it a bit odd
But they can say....
What ever they want
I also feel a bit strange...
Coz i'm a half grown man now a days
But ur the same as always....
Just show me one thing that has changed...

No don't tell me how
Coz u know how much i love
You....
I'm still the kid who used to love u
Still fell the mud & the smell of u...
So dnt stop coming back again...
I only feel like living when it rains.......

Freak Show

what is more important...
who am i
or
what am i....
or
just i...
or
is it just why?
wht am i doin?
dnt u know
i'm just
coverin up my ego.....
just to let go
to show off
that i'm me
what i wana be...
the freak in me
i aint cool
but free
nahh....its just a lie..
i'm just pretending...
to be me....

Bluffing

sm ppl hate me
coz i never lie
he he...thats a lie
or is it coz i dnt try
to be more than i
counlr ever imagine why
is it coz i'm naive
like a lone star in the sky
tell me plz...
but u knw...
i wnt change at all
but at least i cd try...
not to b me 4 a second..
or could i...ever....

Dark Light

6 its 7 its 8 then 10
Times just runs
With the sun
Light is bright
We know its fast
How long will it last
All i know is that
In a blink its the past

Night is a mask
A contrast...
But all you need
Is just one spark
To change whats dark
Go back to the start
With a little hope
In your heart

Knights will rise
With blades of pride...
They will rule
Like fools
Until it falls
No lie will stand
When the truth unfolds

Blank

u think ur special
thats the only thing ur not
u think its nothig
to hurt some one n walk away
u think its ur right
to give up on some one
yes my friend ur correct
and also ur wrong
but trust me one day
u'll sing the same song....
when u find no one
walking along.....
when u feel pain with
every second that passes by
when every heart beat
becomes one big lie...
tell me how u feel....
until then.....
i will be here waiting....
in this lonely path
of honest pain...
and truthful suffering......

Empty

To be frank
My mind is blank
No way to rank
Not a chance
To last
Just one glance
So please dnt ask
WHY?????

....scotoma.....

Ur an eye candy sugar probe.....
I know what ur looking for
Don’t fool around
Where u don’t belong..
If u wana know just get along....

My heart is pure & mind is weak....
But trust me babe its pretty stiff
Just don’t break in
It is open....
But it won't work coz it's broken.....

You wish if it was a cipher...
You see, its a pretty good fighter
Just don't give up
Its not over......
Its a maze, ur at the center.....

Friday, June 4, 2010

Overcoming Guilt


It’s not about love
It’s not about pain
But the question is
What else is there?
To be gained....
We are not robots...
That can be trained...
Biggest illusion is
The thought
Of being tamed...
It is not the question...
But the answer is staged
The only temptation
And no one is saved…..
Whose fault is it?
No one to be blamed...
Me my self & I are the
Ones to be framed....

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Red Pill


I’ve been waiting for a miracle
And now I’m at the verge of insanity...
I’ve been searching for an oracle
Now I’ve ended up with uncertainty......
I used to listen to the sermons
And now I’m voting for the silence....
Its time to wave good bye to devotion
And farewell to my allegiance.....
It’s not just the faith in me
It’s everything that I believed in.....
Just like a meteor I’m bright
It’s coz I’m burning inside out...
I no longer own the key to patience
Meet my long lost friend, innocence
I’m not gona say that I’m falling
It’s just that I’m losing my religion....
It’s not the things that I believe...
Just some words used to deceive....

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Pyramus and Thisbe


Distance keeps on
Increasing...
I just wana break in
To my own fort.....
Sadness keeps on
Haunting...
I’m just trapped
Within my own thoughts.....

As Darkness creeps
Through my windowpane.....
Heart shuts down
I just can’t explain......
I’m a lonely kite
In a hurricane.....
Life is just a fire
In the pouring rain......
Every time I try
To make a change......
Something drags
Me down.........
Here it goes again......

It’s like jumping
On a trampoline
I see far ahead but
No way to reach...
Just like chatting
With a hologram
Can’t feel it
But I understand.....

Just like a wave
Reaching its shore....
No time to wait
Even if I want more.....
It’s not the end
What matters the most...
It’s the distance
That keeps us close....