Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Here & Now


Just take my hand
Make a wish
Lets take a walk
Together.......
Be who u are
Breathe easy....
Just let me be.....
The one u need.......

Look at the stars
Jealous sky
Above.....
there’s no heaven
It is here
In ur heart....
Let me feel my self
In side......

In side....
Those blue eyes...
Bubbling
Full of love....
I see my self
Looking back..
Searching
For an answer....

I’ve known..
For sure...
All my life....

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

The Dead-End


Guess what I’m the bad guy
Don’t know how it happened
It just did.....
Don’t ask me how bad it is..
Coz I really don’t care...
Figure it out if u dare....
Coz nothing matters
When ur heat is broken....
When ur mind is shaken....
When ur thoughts drain away....
Everything starts to fade away....
Only for a moment.....
Then it’s all the same again...
Nothing special....
Not even the tiniest significance
For what u've been through
Seems like it was microscopic
An undetectable effort
Just to get here....
So I u ask me.....
I’d say.....

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Guilty Pleasure


u say no.. no.. don't
then i just want more
hay stop ...oh no
u just make me wana go
i just don't knw 4 sure
i'm still lokin 4 a cure
no.. no.. i ain't curious
its smthing more mysterious
sm thin inside my head
smthin i cnt 4get

pleasure guilty pleasure
its like a treasure
hidden with pressure
when u say no
i want more
when its red its a go....
don't u see its fun..
come lets just run....

Life Somewhere Else.......


Please come n hold me
Cover me with
Sweet warm lies
Feed me with
Sugar coated lines
Take me higher
To the deramy skys
I don't mind
If you add a little spice...
Once in a while
With a bunch of crys....
Telling me how rude
I am.....
How sad you are....
How you get bored...
Why we get old...
How bad the reality is...
Yet...just whisper
How much you miss me....
Just Kiss me.....

Pessimism


been living in the dark
breathing all the pain
cheating with my fate
for too long........
afraid to make a wish
avoiding all the twists
i thought i'd be safe
all alone.......
something got to give
thats all what i knew
im never gona look back
again..........
tell me something new
show me the real view
i'm looking but there
is no light......
go on my dear friend
i'd rather stay here
Just call me if u find
it there.......

Free Verse


call me a drunk.....
a pot-head or a useless jackass...
true......i'm high...
i'm totaly over my head....
cnt even stand still on my feet
yes indeed.....
and i even cnt remember
where i am....
or how did i get here..
but wait a second
does it realy matter....
nahh...dnt think so Mate
what are you saying
i'm in the gutter....
fine, i can live with that....
well then i'm stairnig at the stars...
right...i might change 'em sm day...
who knows....
i dnt care at all...
but i'm happy...
thats all that matters....
but why i wonder...
is it bcoz my brain
is half asleep.....
it has no logic at all...
just like and abacus with no beads
like a machine with no feed...
whats wrong with my thoughts...
why don't i feel greedy any more...
how come i dnt care about all the things
that i own....are these mine...
strange.....
so whts wrong with logic...
tell me will u???
who cares....
all i knw is i feel free
floating like a bumble bee...
i knw its bad for me
i have been told by many...
but why do i feel so gd...
just tell me everybody...

Chain Reaction


walkin back on my memory lane
thinking of what i've missed again
dreaming while my mind is awake
i'm loosing all my reasons to say

i'm fine
never felt better
i'm such a lousy liar
i know.....

my sneezing heart wanna fly away
from all this crap inside of my brain
but i know i just cnt run away
coz after that it want feel the same

again
its never gona be the same
but nothing matters
in the end....

feeling like i'm lost in a fantacy
where only real thing is a mystery
i'm still here just can't walk away
coz its all part of being me...

Myself & i...
wana cry i don't know why...
i'm still...
alive...

still remember how i used to be
the kid they all hate for being free
theres no suprise for what i'v become
i dnt need u coz i'm on the run

again.....

C.R.A.Z.Y


Just Being Me...
Floating free....
Getting Drunk...
Like a bumble bee...
Singing in the shower....
Dancing in the rain....
Smiling in pain......
Dreaming during the day.....
Its just the same....

Clueless


It is the only feeling
That keeps us alive
It helps u to breath in
The happiness above
Just keep on believeing
Please don't deny
At times its deceving
But trust all the lies

Its the sweetest emotion
That makes u cry
The painful temptation
That forces u to try
The senseless devotion
To believe in a lie
The raging illusion
That you will fly

The brightest darkness
Within ur heart
The lonliest gathering
In side your mind
The realistic delution
Infront of ur eyes
The light of premonition
That makes u survive....

Abandoned


I was nearly drowned
In the ocean called despair....
Just found a life boat called hope
In the middle of nowhere...
Nothing much to say
Ur welcome to guess if u dare
Just wana runaway
Coz I never wana go back there.....
Again.....

Nothing is perfect
I know all about the theory
Dreamt of a spotless mind
Just found mine a bit weary...
Full of misery & torn....
Wish I could be reborn...
Trying to remember
What I saw there.....
Found it written
In a raw tear.....

I nearly fell down
From a private heaven called desire...
Just found a satisfaction rope
On my way to hell...
Nothing much to see
Which was build upon greed
Just wana fly away
Coz I never wana go back there.....
Again.....

Nothing Special


Tell me a lie
Make me feel guilty
For keeping it hidden
Deep inside my heart...........
Look in to my eyes
Make me go crazy
Smile like a daisy
Be a stream - take me away.....
Whisper a story
Sting with a tear
Weep for some time
Just asking me to guess.....
Tease me with a smile
Treat me with a kiss
Let me get lost
In your eyes - floating free....
Show me a sign
Tempt me like a wine
Get me drunk with love
And let me drown in your soul......

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Unconditional

Hiding your eyes
With fancy shades...
Avoiding my eyes
With a far long gaze....
I keep on talking..
Trying to prove my facts....
U keep on listing to
Loud pop tracks..

How long
Do you want me to take this
How far should i crawl....
How many miles should i walk...
I'm fed up with this whole
Tests of devotion...
Its getting too cold...
And i just can hold
No more.....
So long my love
I'm not from above
And I'm gonna let it go.....

Been looking all over
To find a sign
I am not blind
But i still cant find
Is it only me
Is it something else
Is this the end
Coz i don't wanna pretend...

Who Am I..........?

I get up every mondy.....go to work, start from whr i'v left from friday.....start sm thing totaly booaring n I realy dnt care at all....start smthing that desnt help anyone but the person who invented beuracrasy....stop not Mr.Mx Webber of course....yep they pay me ofcourse...but does it worth 2 pay me that much...?????

Then i interact with a bunch of ppl whom i dnt lyk...but i just talk to them mainly for my survival as a pathotic co worker.....blame me 4 being a leach...i'm not worried...guilty as charged....If ur realy reading this post..(coz mst ppl dnt read 'em at all...they just put a like)....i'm not worried..)call me a depressed stupid selfish coward...yes i am...yes my friend....but...theres another part of my life that is searching 4 an answer every moment i'm not working(wasting my tym)......

I dnt have any goals rather than finding wht this life is all about...ofcourse i knw a what it is...its just that i dnt understand it...or i'm not ready to.....what ever it is...i'm still lost...Then comes my parentz...they wnts 2 see me as a gd citizen with a secured future....bulshit i say.....but how cn i make 'em understand....then comes my GF...she loves me..i knw that....but am i committed enough...only she knows...i'm trying to break my roots n she's trying to create a new one....COMPLICATED i'd say.....

What am i...? Who am i..... Do u knw me.....?????

Am i...?


Haunted by my own screams
Caught inside my own dreams
Losing it by all means
Walking back to old me...

Searching for the freedom
Hating fame & stardom
Using hope so tandem
I call my self
random

Trust me
I'm the devil
In the shape of a mortal
Its only for survival
Don't hate me for denial....


Down 2 Earth........

we people are always talking about true love. But do we realy know what that means. Coz i don't. What is the basis for only having one true love in one's life. Is it a fact. And more or less how do u identify ur soulmate.

I'm totaly confused. Is it the perfect partner. Or is it the complete opposite of once self. Or is it some thing else. I mean most south asins believe in a pure love. Wich as nothing to do with lust. I tik that is total bullshit. Yes there is a pure feeling but once u started being with each other u kne lust is a part of love. The other part is sm thing else.

And trust me there is nothing cultural about love. It is totaly unconditional. But most Sri Lankans misunderstand this and try to fix it in their narrow minded frame. Like everything else.

We all are members of a primitive society. Seriously how many Sri Lankan husbands can handle their wives enjoying free time with another man. We can't. Yet we claim we understan what true love is. i say bull shit. We should accept the fact that we are also animals. We are full of shit. Even though we claim that we are the most developed beings we are just barbarians with a mental attitude and a perception to satisfy our self as we are civilised.