Monday, November 3, 2014

Glimpse


I've been creating this
Emotional Hell
For a long long time
By making it all up
Just imagining you
From a distance
From a far away land
While in exile
Since I don’t belong
Here with you
The heated exchange of thoughts
Created this Black hole
Within my soul
Creating a portal
In to the Dark side
Consuming me time to time
Within in
Without any noticeable trigger
Just the need in me
For you to feel
This pain so real
With me; side by side
Which I’ve always dreamt to
I had to try
I had to lie
Had to protect
What I’ve created
I had to detect
The dedication; I've wasted
The bitterness; I've tasted
Just for a mere touch

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Light


A Blind man with a lamp
On his stick
Walks down the lane
With no fear in his head.....
Just baffled by this sight
Stars seems to disappear
In to the darkness...
Strangled with shame....
But the moon stands still
With grace by its side
Along with the
Cruelty of the Sun...
The almighty King
I for once asked my own self
Who are we to question
What is faith
And what is grief....
Where as both emerges
From raw emptiness...
With no means of effort
From the hidden corners
Of ones heart....
But with just a tiny
Drop of temper...
You break that tricky wall
Once and for all....
Without any struggle
Wanting to be free...
I'd rather enjoy this ride...
And just be.....


Saturday, June 22, 2013

Quote..


You are performing
A mental surgery
On a kitchen table....
With a half sharpened knife...
And a smile without life....
While my mind is wide awake....
My heart is half open.....
My eyes bleed with anger.....
Mixed with the fear of hope....
You are adding salt here and there....
With some seeds of despair
I don’t want to explain the pain...
I’m not going to ask
What you are willing to gain.....
But, I know you are well trained.....
And I’m just pawn whose being framed....
To a crime I didn't commit....
With out any time limit....
I will be all over the floor.....
In a split second....
But wait...
Some one is at the door....
Could that be my own conscience.....
Perfect timing I’d say......
To take me away.....
From the Heaven gates...
To the range of the Hell’s bells......

Friday, April 12, 2013

Journey



I hate you
When I’m sober
I miss you
When I’m not…
I see through
This mirror of distraction
While wandering
Across the guidelines…
Printed with dotted line
Consisting only
Green & yellow….
I’m breaking
All the connections
Just for one last breath
Please hold on tight
Cause this ain’t
My fight anymore…
To make you
Feel protected….
Trust me
I’m ain’t keeping my
Shields intact…
I feel withered
From inside
Glad that I've packed light….
Even though
My brain obliged
My heart seems to float away…
Against the gravity
Of all these lies….
But don’t worry
I’ll make it to the end...
You don’t
Have to pretend….
That you care….
I know my rights…
Though you knew
All my wrongs…
The very reason
Why we couldn't hold on…
There fore
For just this once….
Lest walk along…..
This empty road…..

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Plan B...



I’m trying
To do the right thing
To break away
From your perfect Strings....
My intentions are pure
I’m not trying
To hurt you
I’m just looking for a cure
I’m not just a jealous guy
My visions are clear….
Don’t try to find me
Cause you know
I’m not there..
Don’t ever wonder why
It hurts when I’m near…
Please don’t look out for me
You know I don’t care…
I’m not being a fool…
I’m just being so curl..
So that
You’d finally crawl
Underneath your own stupidity
The serendipity
That you seek….
Form a heartless creep….

Sunday, September 30, 2012

Knot...



I’m lost in the woods
With a charismatic smile....
It tossed and turned
My brains out...
I wish i could be free...
Just like a wild bee...
Don’t worry
My dear...
I won't go on a
Killing spree...
Its way too simple
Than all of your dreams...
That moulds...
Penguins and unicorns..
All tangled
In one screen...
Yes i know what you mean...
About you and me...
It’s here and now...
Not the eternity...
I can never be your knight...
It ain't the lack of bravery....
I fear the night...
Darling
It ain’t sweet but savory...
When the moon is full and bright...
Don’t ask me to fight....
Its way too much
Light...
To be wasted on your lies...

Saturday, September 15, 2012

The Q



I’m looking at you
Trying to figure out me
I don’t know what to do
But I’m still looking at you
But the world can’t hear
Cause its strange out there
There’s some weight in the air….

I’m sitting out here
Nobody can see
Cause its strange out there
Even the sun rejects to glare
You’re looking at me
I’m melting down fast
There’s not enough air
When you’re asking if I dare….

Friday, August 31, 2012

3....


Yes i know
I ain't fit 
To survive
My carnivorous mind....
Yes i am blind...
Just like a child
With a pack of crayons
In front of 
A perfectly painted wall
Yes I hate lullabies...
Coz they keep me awake...
While I’m asleep..
It’s too deep to
Get out form...
My own prison
It’s hard to break theses 
Walls made out of fur...
My obsession
For the darkness...
Encourages the passion
For loneliness...
My heart kneels
Before the throne called hatred...
With in my brain...
To absorb the pain...
In to my own veins...
With no gain
What so ever...
Simply to save the world...
From me...
Myself and i...
The Threesome of treason...
The reason for Freedom…

Sunday, May 27, 2012

The BEat....



I’m looking at you
From a distance...
Through
A shattered Glass
Window.....
I used to know
What i see......
Now i guess
I’m not even here.....
I just know
What i believe in..
I know I ain't determined....
Just keep on walking...
Talking....
Falling Down....
Like a balloon animal...
Loosing stamp....
For a moment of joy....
And deception.....
I will give up
All the reasons....
Cause....
I can feel
The need in me....
But you keep on
Trying to be.....
Free.......


Sunday, February 19, 2012

The Sequel




I’m just lying
Like a hypnotized
Hippopotamus....
Naked
On a plain couch...
With my head so far
Up my arse....
Like a disillusioned...
Chipmunk....
My mind is
Jumping every where...
Trying to find n opening....
Where as my heart is
Trapped in a hamster wheel...
Thumping like a gangster...
Probably too young to kneel....
It generates
Pain in exchange of
Happiness.....
Converts shame in to fame....
Thank god
My liver is still working...
So no one can bother my
Wishful thinking....
At last lust has won
The stupid battle of attraction
Defeating love....
And i feel so off loaded....
Over flowing
Feelings...
Are all over ma sheets....
Damaged dreams are
All over the place....
Along with sugar coated lines....
Which now soaked in sweat...
And my lungs are out of breath..
With a big regret....
Which I’m going to forget.....

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Yegg....



Yeah.....now I’m rich...
I cracked the vault of time...
With a piece of lime....
Dipped in a cheap whiskey...
And it’s the perfect crime….
Don’t wanna define…
This time……
But feels like I’m missing...
Something in me....
I know it sounds crazy...
Well....
You know it better than me....
Some times it’s harder to be...
Who you wanna be....
Coz life can be too easy....
When things get slippery n wet...
It’s the treachery....
Of the silence....
And the misery of life...
While you seek the...
Company of darkness....
Underneath the clouds of light....
It’s simply not the brightness...
That drives us away......
Again......             

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Werso




I only hear
The drip drip drops
Of silence....
Beyond the ku klux klan
Of the brain....
It is just not
Some pain to remember.....
That keeps on coming
All over again.....
My eyes are
Blinded with raw anger...
Tells me never to
Back away.....
Tears keep on blocking
All my emotions.....
Simply asking me to pray.....
Is this the end....
Time to defend....
My shallow heart within.....
Time to pretend....
That I’m a hero....
Who fights for freedom
With himself.......

Monday, July 11, 2011

Knowing.....


You know what...
I keep on guessing...
And you keep on
Telling me
It’s a blessing....
In disguise....
But I’m not gonna keep on
Messing....
With the time
Coz it’s disgusting....
To know every time
What is coming...
Which makes me
Wanna keep on running...
Coz what i see
Keeps on haunting.....
In my mind.....
And i don’t think its stunning...
Coz I’m just burning.....
Inside out.....
So I’m simply letting...
My emotions to go
Dancing.....
With the wolves.....
Go and hunt them....
If you dare to see
What’s killing me day by day....
My darling.....

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

The Lazy One......



When everything
Just moves so fast....
I won’t mind
To be the last...
Empty handed.......
Here alone....
I ain't demanding.....
It’s just a quote....
What else you expect...
From a mortal pawn...
You can call me a liar..
If you want some more....

Self respect....
It eats me within....
Dignity just messes
Everything.....
Take off your cloths....
And look down below....
Explore the emptiness....
Trust me you'll crave more....
Some times you lose...
It is no flaw...
They’ll always yell...
My friend just ignore....

I am fighting...
Because i was born...
No I’m not attempting...
To find the cure..
It’s just an ad hoc....
No routine.....
It’s hard to fight
The foes within.....
Just close your eyes
Then you'll see....
I wonder why you don’t
Hear the scream.....

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Proof....



I’m walking beside me....
Like a shadow from the past....
Am i a ghost with no heart..
Watching every step...
Counting every breath....
Looking in to the future....
Like a blind man with a stick.....
Tracking down my own self...
Hunting down untamed thoughts...
Seeking the mirage of hope....
In the far side of this
Desert of life....
On the verge of a storm......
Just to show myself that I’m alone..

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Change.....



Yesterday was wonderful
Everything was fine...
Life seems so beautiful
Even guilt made me shine....
Enchanted by the fantacy
Heart sang time to time...
Wonder what is wrong today
The dark is comming round...

I still believe in fairy tales
Happy endings are fine....
Still believe in wonderlands
Where every word just rhymes...
I love to cheat my destiny
Its just something in my mind..
I still believe in yesterday
Whare my derams are still alive...

Friday, March 18, 2011

"Stupid is as Stupid does"



Hit me in the head
Punch me on the face...
Shoot me from the front
Don't care if you laugh...
Yep i don't care at all
I've passed that limit
Try me...go ahead...
You'll find nothing
Except my shallow heart...
Beating calmly..
Underneath
The emotionless eyes...
Bearing all painful lies..
Dig deeper...
All you'll find is hatred...
Lust and anger....
Wrapped with wisdom
Drenched with Stupidity 
And danger...

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Untitled......



Been walking for
Far too long....
Thought i was growing strong....
Seems like i was wrong.....
After all
Life is not just a rock song......
Joy is like a stroke of lightning.....
Breathtaking........
I bet you love the way it’s shining....
Until you hear the thundering....
Time moves on
But it never ages...
Life stays still
But it moves in stages....
Trust me dear
It’s a book with empty pages......
Freedom is no disease
But it is contagious....

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Reason......



You say you need me....
I say you don't......
You say you'll feel free....
I say you won't....
You keep on believing
That I’m the one.....
I’ve got no choice babe
I’m on the run......

You’re in the future......
I am the past.....
Look how the time moves...
It’s so damn fast......
I ain't the superman...
No i can't fly...
And trust me baby...
I won't even try.......

Baby you’re a super hit...
I’m just a flop....
You hate to step down...
I just won't go up....
I’ve got no plans
But you’re one blueprint.....
I’m improvising and
Your checking the script..

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Loser With an Attitude.......


I don't expect 
You to be kind...
I don't want you to smile...
Just becoz i'm a dreamer...
Just becoz i'm down..
You dont get the right 
To own me...
Coz i don't owe you a dime...
Sometimes you make me wonder...
Sometimes you even make my smile
But that doesnt give you
The keys to my life...
It is mine..
End of story...
Its fine the way it is....
Coz i like the way it is...
I might be a looser..
I might never touch the sky
But i can live with that forever...
Until i can see
The Bright-SIDE.....